outlook seems grim:
theres three sides to every coin. you can call heads or tails, but when the coin lands standing on its side you cant help but wonder how to pick a winner. dont judge me or assume you know me. if you can figure me out ill take you out anywhere you want. 100 bucks? dont care. i cant even figure why i do things and i know me best. turn left and you miss what youd see turning right. i am unpredictable and crazy. red is up and blue is 5. all life is equal and at death nothing but our souls matters. there is no race, no gender, sexual preference is btu a way of life, bisexual people dont know the difference between love and sexual relief, the bible says nothing about being gay being wrong, love is and illusion created to stave off ones loneliness and despair, and every sun sets when the moon rises. life is simple, but complex; a roulette of madness and death where humanity seeks immortality to deny fate. "two walls, one door."
philosophy is a life of loneliness. i am burdened with more than any human could bear. most people who have seen what i have have either gone insane or killed themselves. i have chopped off the hand of madness and used the bones to choke reality to death. i accept everything i hear as truth and when the day is done i deliver a sentence. those who lie will drown in the pool of their unjust words. those who lust for those bound to others will suffocate inside the cruel hand of heartbreak. the greedy will be blinded by the very light of the gold they so dearly cherish. the jealous will be swallowed by the shdaows of their doubts and fears, eventually to be extinguished for eternity.
i have but a few friends, i have never found love and believe it to be a lie, and all that i have ever cared for has soon perished.
food for thought:
the world, every world; with infinite possibilities there are infinite worlds.
what lies beyond what only the human eye can see?
are we the main world or simply a branch of another worlds mistakes?
who keeps screwing with my life?
are we all human? or is there a greater force out there far beyond comprehension at work?
why cant everyone accept everyone else? why must we argue and bicker over so much that we lose track of whats on the line? one second a man is on trial for murder, the next hes being given a pity sentence because his kid died two weeks ago. where has the world gone?
why must i be burdened with the horrors and joys that i have seen? why cant everyone know true happiness?
and thats just the first 3 minutes when i wake up. i wonder if i will be stuck with more questions than answers.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
S.S. CHAPTER 3: THE REAL LIFE APOCALYPSE!
shadowline saga: chapter 3
THE REAL LIFE APOCALYPSE
the apocalypse seems to be an interesting subject at this time. well what people dont know is that a movie style apocalypse is IMPOSSIBLE. a zombie outbreak could not happen:
1. the human body cannot survive for more than 3 days without water.
2. if the human body were somehow revived after dying in order for the body to move the brain must be active. if the brain is active then the heart, lungs, liver, stomach, intestinal tract, and kidney MUST BE IN WORKING ORDER. if even 1 of those above organs are damaged or inactive the body will die again within less than one day.
3. if the organs are active and one gets damaged or shot then it will shut down, killing trhe body.
4. if the body really has been reincarnated with only the instincts to survive, then the bodies ability to clot blood will not work. and therefore if the body is bleeding it will just keep bleeding till all the blood is gone.
5. "zombies like warm flesh" if the brainis working, the body is working, and if the body is working it will be warm. if the hypothalmus is inactive DUE TO DEATH, ILLNESS, OR SERIOUS INJURY; the bodies temperature will continue to rise till the brainand internal organs boil. the hypothalmus stops working when the human body dies, meaning that technicaly speaking, all zombies would have steadily increasing body temperatures that would eventually kill what little is left of the brain.
6. if someone dies from an illness like aids, stds, pneumonia, cancer, or ANY DISEASE; when they die the disease still lingers in their body and rots it. so if the person who was reincarnated had a terminal illness, they would just die again.
7. if the brain was only ressurected with the will to survive, it would make the zombie attack other zombies so that the attacking zombie could live longer. the zombies would actually be fighting each other and forming groups with zombie leaders and attack other zombies in packs till only their pack remains.
8. if the brain only needed to survive by feeding and killing the body would not be able to fight off disease. which stops happening UPON A HUMANS DEATH. plus there wouldnt be a soul to keep the body alive.
i could go on forever on reasons why a zombie apocalypse is impossible. but im hungry and beginning to get bored.
THE REAL LIFE APOCALYPSE
the apocalypse seems to be an interesting subject at this time. well what people dont know is that a movie style apocalypse is IMPOSSIBLE. a zombie outbreak could not happen:
1. the human body cannot survive for more than 3 days without water.
2. if the human body were somehow revived after dying in order for the body to move the brain must be active. if the brain is active then the heart, lungs, liver, stomach, intestinal tract, and kidney MUST BE IN WORKING ORDER. if even 1 of those above organs are damaged or inactive the body will die again within less than one day.
3. if the organs are active and one gets damaged or shot then it will shut down, killing trhe body.
4. if the body really has been reincarnated with only the instincts to survive, then the bodies ability to clot blood will not work. and therefore if the body is bleeding it will just keep bleeding till all the blood is gone.
5. "zombies like warm flesh" if the brainis working, the body is working, and if the body is working it will be warm. if the hypothalmus is inactive DUE TO DEATH, ILLNESS, OR SERIOUS INJURY; the bodies temperature will continue to rise till the brainand internal organs boil. the hypothalmus stops working when the human body dies, meaning that technicaly speaking, all zombies would have steadily increasing body temperatures that would eventually kill what little is left of the brain.
6. if someone dies from an illness like aids, stds, pneumonia, cancer, or ANY DISEASE; when they die the disease still lingers in their body and rots it. so if the person who was reincarnated had a terminal illness, they would just die again.
7. if the brain was only ressurected with the will to survive, it would make the zombie attack other zombies so that the attacking zombie could live longer. the zombies would actually be fighting each other and forming groups with zombie leaders and attack other zombies in packs till only their pack remains.
8. if the brain only needed to survive by feeding and killing the body would not be able to fight off disease. which stops happening UPON A HUMANS DEATH. plus there wouldnt be a soul to keep the body alive.
i could go on forever on reasons why a zombie apocalypse is impossible. but im hungry and beginning to get bored.
S.S. CHAPTER 2: the truth WILL set you free
shadowline saga: chapter 2
the truth WILL set you free
some time ago i began having strange dreams and visions. to this day my countless decades in the chaotic prison called my mind have yet to reveal one fact that didnt raise thousands of questions. ive seen death, met the commander of the protal, faced off against satan, seen all modes of time, and more recently saw the beginning of the apocalypse.
i cant say i believe what i have seen and everything i have been through. i also cannot say for a fact that i dont believe it either. certain things that once seemed impossible to me have been without a doubt proven to be fact. heaven and hell exist, that is fact. combine the seed theory and the multiverse theory and scientifically they have to exist. however, by that mean valhalla and the underworld must exist as well.
in fact, combining the seed theory and the multiverse theory, it proves that every religion is fact; all gods and demons included. if every universe exists then religions like scientology and judaism have to exist. somewhere out there there must be a universe where scientology and all the crazy crap they believe has happened and exists.
a universe where everything is perfect and nothing bad ever happens and all life has everything they could ever want or need; heaven. a universe where everything goes wrong and nothing good ever happens and all life has only the worst things and lives in pain and agony; hell. a universe where all things live on a balance of decisions and actions that result in all life living in both equally great suffering and joy; purgatory.
i understand that anything can exist given that someone can think of it. unicorns with bread for wings, toasters for ears, hot dogs for legs, and a giant anus for a face; it exists. everything i have seen and experienced, from super powers to religious enlightenment, all have been real. i have moved at speeds beyond comprehension and traveled to realms beyond any imagination.
maybe its truth, maybe its accepting it, whatever it is or how it works, i have been set free and roamed beyond ones wildest imagination. im barely 23 physically, and yet my wisdom surpasses most people i have seen who are older than 80. hell, i understand life like nobody i have seen. the secret to a perfect life in a perfect society ina perfect world in a perfect universe? no money, complete honesty, acceptance of everyone and everything, remaining your own person and never letting anyone or anything choose how you live your life, respecting both the living and the dead, accepting all religions and nationalities, living life with honor and valor, and always respecting people who deserve it rather than THINK they deserve it.
its is through peace, rather than war, that one conquers the world. you must accept everyone as they are and give them a chance to redeem themselves before you misjudge them. why let someone break your right side of your jaw when they have already broke the left side? why would you let the world make you its doormat when you can get up, dust off, and find a better home?
the truth will truly set you free; no fears, no worries, no suffering, no money, no war; it IS POSSIBLE. follow in my footsteps for a better world.
the truth WILL set you free
some time ago i began having strange dreams and visions. to this day my countless decades in the chaotic prison called my mind have yet to reveal one fact that didnt raise thousands of questions. ive seen death, met the commander of the protal, faced off against satan, seen all modes of time, and more recently saw the beginning of the apocalypse.
i cant say i believe what i have seen and everything i have been through. i also cannot say for a fact that i dont believe it either. certain things that once seemed impossible to me have been without a doubt proven to be fact. heaven and hell exist, that is fact. combine the seed theory and the multiverse theory and scientifically they have to exist. however, by that mean valhalla and the underworld must exist as well.
in fact, combining the seed theory and the multiverse theory, it proves that every religion is fact; all gods and demons included. if every universe exists then religions like scientology and judaism have to exist. somewhere out there there must be a universe where scientology and all the crazy crap they believe has happened and exists.
a universe where everything is perfect and nothing bad ever happens and all life has everything they could ever want or need; heaven. a universe where everything goes wrong and nothing good ever happens and all life has only the worst things and lives in pain and agony; hell. a universe where all things live on a balance of decisions and actions that result in all life living in both equally great suffering and joy; purgatory.
i understand that anything can exist given that someone can think of it. unicorns with bread for wings, toasters for ears, hot dogs for legs, and a giant anus for a face; it exists. everything i have seen and experienced, from super powers to religious enlightenment, all have been real. i have moved at speeds beyond comprehension and traveled to realms beyond any imagination.
maybe its truth, maybe its accepting it, whatever it is or how it works, i have been set free and roamed beyond ones wildest imagination. im barely 23 physically, and yet my wisdom surpasses most people i have seen who are older than 80. hell, i understand life like nobody i have seen. the secret to a perfect life in a perfect society ina perfect world in a perfect universe? no money, complete honesty, acceptance of everyone and everything, remaining your own person and never letting anyone or anything choose how you live your life, respecting both the living and the dead, accepting all religions and nationalities, living life with honor and valor, and always respecting people who deserve it rather than THINK they deserve it.
its is through peace, rather than war, that one conquers the world. you must accept everyone as they are and give them a chance to redeem themselves before you misjudge them. why let someone break your right side of your jaw when they have already broke the left side? why would you let the world make you its doormat when you can get up, dust off, and find a better home?
the truth will truly set you free; no fears, no worries, no suffering, no money, no war; it IS POSSIBLE. follow in my footsteps for a better world.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
screw you mr. "photos every day for six years"
that guy on youtube who took a photo of himself every day for six years? well im one-upping him and then 3 one-up-mooning myself. forget a photo every day, im taking a piece of artwork each month and i am going to make exactly two changes to it each day. then at the end of the month i will combine the art, the processes used, the time it took, a piece of music, and the original image; and making a music video.
time for a new project and a new life. every month of every year i will take one photo and make two changes each day. at the end of the month i will post a music video compilation showing the transition from one piece of artwork to another. starting today the project begins, january 31 the video will be up.
the difference? instead of using some shitty old camera to make a douchebag egotistical slideshow of myself, i will be using my own art, my own programs, my own personally composed music, and my own computer and compiling everything together. which honestly seems to ironically make me look more egotistical and arrogant than him....well this was well thought through wasnt it?
once this month ends i will give basic instructions on how this can be done by anyone. if anyone sees artwork that they like enough to have just let me know. and if anyone knows who drew the photo i am using for january it would help to know so i can credit them. this month is halfway over sooo yeeeaaah....
this month i am using a drawing of a reaper i found on bing image search. as for next month; well lets just say i am going to turn graph paper into a crazy evil disco ball. look to facebook, youtube, here, and my websites.
shadowline saga: chapter 1
chapter 1: the emptiness and the void
i have lost the will to live. the world hates me and fears me. i have two friends left out of everyond and anyone i have ever known. i had to pull out of college and still dont know wtf i want to major in. my days consist of waking up, watching tv, baking food a few times a week, composing music and poetry that nobody will read or listen to, drawing a few potos that nobody ever looks at, and going back to sleep.
the most entertainment i ever have is when i decide to do stupid things like freeze oranges and eggs or see if my slingshot can pop a paintball. or i get lucky and can go to buy drinks at walmart. i sleep more hours each day than a typical cat and when im awake i barely hev the energy to walk to the bathroom.
my nights consist of horrible visions and horrors that cause me ptsd equivalent to that of a vietnam war vet. half the time i wake up crying and end up curled up in the fetal position shaking in fear till i fall back asleep. i cant drink alcohol, i cant drive, i cant ride a bike, i cant rollerblade, i cant even ride the bus. half the time when i try to do anything something goes horribly wrong.
i dont smoke, i dont do drugs, i cant comsume alcohol, im allergic to milk AND lactose intolerant, i cant eat meat without tasting the pain and suffering the animals went through, the acl in my left knee is shot to hell and my back has a permanent injury that wont heal, not to mention im now having heart trouble and constantly fighting off an illness that doctors still havent been able to identify.
im 22 and will soon be 23, but i feel like im 85 and turning 150. i have a house full of things that i cant even sell because amazon and ebay have banned me with no reason and refuse to file my disputes or even telk to me. i have a home with nobody to live with and a garage with no car to go in it. whats worse is i havent been held in love in 20 years and i havent dated, been kissed, kissed, been in love, had sex, or even been hugged or held a girls hand.
i hate romance, i hate the world, i hate everyone and everything; all people do is judge me and fear me with no thought to what kind of person i really am. people treat me like im some monster or abomination that needs to be chased away with pitchforks and torches. its like this entire universe doesnt want me in it.
i have nothing to live for and nothing to die for. i am a firefly in a world with no light. and im going to go to sleep tonight and nobody is going to read this, nobody is going to care what i have to say, and im going to wake up to the same day i always do. im going to live this cycle of nothingness till the weight of my pain and suffering nails the lid on my coffin shut.
and i can do nothing to change my life. so i will just keep going into this pit of eternal darkness till i can find the light. i will just keep moving forward till i reach the end of the universe and fall off. and as such will tuble through eternity till i am caught by the hands of fate.
i have lost the will to live. the world hates me and fears me. i have two friends left out of everyond and anyone i have ever known. i had to pull out of college and still dont know wtf i want to major in. my days consist of waking up, watching tv, baking food a few times a week, composing music and poetry that nobody will read or listen to, drawing a few potos that nobody ever looks at, and going back to sleep.
the most entertainment i ever have is when i decide to do stupid things like freeze oranges and eggs or see if my slingshot can pop a paintball. or i get lucky and can go to buy drinks at walmart. i sleep more hours each day than a typical cat and when im awake i barely hev the energy to walk to the bathroom.
my nights consist of horrible visions and horrors that cause me ptsd equivalent to that of a vietnam war vet. half the time i wake up crying and end up curled up in the fetal position shaking in fear till i fall back asleep. i cant drink alcohol, i cant drive, i cant ride a bike, i cant rollerblade, i cant even ride the bus. half the time when i try to do anything something goes horribly wrong.
i dont smoke, i dont do drugs, i cant comsume alcohol, im allergic to milk AND lactose intolerant, i cant eat meat without tasting the pain and suffering the animals went through, the acl in my left knee is shot to hell and my back has a permanent injury that wont heal, not to mention im now having heart trouble and constantly fighting off an illness that doctors still havent been able to identify.
im 22 and will soon be 23, but i feel like im 85 and turning 150. i have a house full of things that i cant even sell because amazon and ebay have banned me with no reason and refuse to file my disputes or even telk to me. i have a home with nobody to live with and a garage with no car to go in it. whats worse is i havent been held in love in 20 years and i havent dated, been kissed, kissed, been in love, had sex, or even been hugged or held a girls hand.
i hate romance, i hate the world, i hate everyone and everything; all people do is judge me and fear me with no thought to what kind of person i really am. people treat me like im some monster or abomination that needs to be chased away with pitchforks and torches. its like this entire universe doesnt want me in it.
i have nothing to live for and nothing to die for. i am a firefly in a world with no light. and im going to go to sleep tonight and nobody is going to read this, nobody is going to care what i have to say, and im going to wake up to the same day i always do. im going to live this cycle of nothingness till the weight of my pain and suffering nails the lid on my coffin shut.
and i can do nothing to change my life. so i will just keep going into this pit of eternal darkness till i can find the light. i will just keep moving forward till i reach the end of the universe and fall off. and as such will tuble through eternity till i am caught by the hands of fate.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
my videos 1
my first collection of homemade music videos:
Copyright Disclaimer Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for "fair use" for purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing. Non-profit, educational or personal use tips the balance in favor of fair use.
yes that is all, just the disclaimer. its hard to load videos here, takes forever and the output is not worth the effort. coming soon i will be finding a way to get all my shows online for anyone to watch. i have every episode of every show on my hard drive meaning anime fans be wary! it will take time to upload everything so be patient people.
i will be loading my music as well, this includes songs i have and songs i dont. hopefully using my own art, speeding up the music, placing the copyright disclaimer above, and reversing any video will be enough to keep youtube from being dicks and banning me. i try not to use ads and all my material is checked daily and virus free.
"i am but a lowly king, here to make sure my loyal subjects are happy and live fulfilled lives. to those who shun me or my ways, two walls to every door; my mind is made."
Copyright Disclaimer Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for "fair use" for purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing. Non-profit, educational or personal use tips the balance in favor of fair use.
yes that is all, just the disclaimer. its hard to load videos here, takes forever and the output is not worth the effort. coming soon i will be finding a way to get all my shows online for anyone to watch. i have every episode of every show on my hard drive meaning anime fans be wary! it will take time to upload everything so be patient people.
i will be loading my music as well, this includes songs i have and songs i dont. hopefully using my own art, speeding up the music, placing the copyright disclaimer above, and reversing any video will be enough to keep youtube from being dicks and banning me. i try not to use ads and all my material is checked daily and virus free.
"i am but a lowly king, here to make sure my loyal subjects are happy and live fulfilled lives. to those who shun me or my ways, two walls to every door; my mind is made."
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
premonition diaries: apocalypse NOW!!!!!!
premonition diaries:
episode 2: apocalypse NOW!!!!
who do i tell? what do i say? how do i explain this? if dreams are the subconcious trying to tell you something then what does this mean? there is no other answer, i know what i have seen. the apocalypse is REAL, and i will be there.
fire raining down from the skies as people lie dead in the streets. suddenly a meteor crashes into the ground releasing a huge flamxing shockwave. as the flames travel across the planet strange figures rise out of the ground. a flaming man riding a flaming chariot begins riding towards me and quickly passes through. i am neither alive or dead, yet everyone else is either dying or suffereing.
then it happens; the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. a great massive man atop an even bigger horse. the man is wearing armor and has a huge sword in his left hand. his horse looks more like an elephant than a horse. all around me battles begin. black creatures and flaming angels fighting nonstop.
in the skies above creatures wearing elegent robes and who have flaiming wings much larger than their own bodies are flying around. creatures of all kinds dash across the ground. werewolves, feline hybrids, giant canine beasts, and zombies. strange birds made of etherial flame compounds and scaled dragon like creatures are flying above.
i have never been so amazed, terrified, humbled, and honored than after what i saw last night. the city around me was slowly burning to rubble and even the skyscrapers reaching towards the sun were mere molehills compared to the horseman.
(01/09/2013)
episode 2: apocalypse NOW!!!!
who do i tell? what do i say? how do i explain this? if dreams are the subconcious trying to tell you something then what does this mean? there is no other answer, i know what i have seen. the apocalypse is REAL, and i will be there.
fire raining down from the skies as people lie dead in the streets. suddenly a meteor crashes into the ground releasing a huge flamxing shockwave. as the flames travel across the planet strange figures rise out of the ground. a flaming man riding a flaming chariot begins riding towards me and quickly passes through. i am neither alive or dead, yet everyone else is either dying or suffereing.
then it happens; the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. a great massive man atop an even bigger horse. the man is wearing armor and has a huge sword in his left hand. his horse looks more like an elephant than a horse. all around me battles begin. black creatures and flaming angels fighting nonstop.
in the skies above creatures wearing elegent robes and who have flaiming wings much larger than their own bodies are flying around. creatures of all kinds dash across the ground. werewolves, feline hybrids, giant canine beasts, and zombies. strange birds made of etherial flame compounds and scaled dragon like creatures are flying above.
i have never been so amazed, terrified, humbled, and honored than after what i saw last night. the city around me was slowly burning to rubble and even the skyscrapers reaching towards the sun were mere molehills compared to the horseman.
(01/09/2013)
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