episode 19: from the heart of stone
life can be confusing sometimes; one second everything is perfect, then everything burns down right in front of you. how could we know when the world is going to end? how important are the things we own and what we have done when we reach the end? i believe that we are held down by the things we own and the deeds weve done.
i wonder sometimes if living a normal life is ever even worth it. i may be a home owner and have a place to live and tons of expensive things, but whats a good life without someone to share it with? my monthly budget is 700 dollars, since i live on disability. life can be lived when your income is under the countries average; its about how you manage your money.
i shop for clothes at goodwill, only eat when im hungry, i dont drink or smoke, i rarely consume beef and pork, and im both allergic to milk and lactose intolerant. i live off so littel because i know how to be frugal. i taught myself how to do pretty much everything. i learned how to write, read, cook, clean, do laundry, wash dishes, bake, repair things, compose music, tie my shoes, and all my english and math skills; all on my own.
i didnt have the grace of having a stay-at-home mother, and my dad cooked just as much as my mother did. i was raised in a family where all duties were shared by both parents, and as such grew up being used to that life. because of how i grew up i understood that only by two people giving 100% to each other can the couple truly experience the love of a relationship. you cannot expexct others to service you if all you do is service yourself.
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