the life and times of sp_on episode 13

shadows on the sun, the light of truth

optimism is simply a measly human way to avoid the truths in life.
pessimism is but the way a coward hides from hope.
diaries are but a wall that the weak willed keep their suffering behind.
hate is but a tool that the ignorant use to build the houses that they store their lives in.
bullying is but a gun that people use to blow away all their pain.
fame is nothing but a means for the self concious to feel good about themselves.
money is but a simple forest in which people hide their shame.
everyone is equal, the rich are simply people with a lot of money.
celebrities are simply people who have money and do things that everyone likes.
politicians are simply people with connections and a fanbase.
actors are simply people who are good at faking life.
porn stars are nothing more than very attractive people who are good at sex.
models are nothing more than pretty faces hidden behind a mask.
take their money and the rich become poor.
take their money and fans and celebrities are everyday people.
remove their connections and popularity and politicians are just ordinary people.
remove the script and an actor is nothing more than a beggar on the street.
damage their bodies or give them an std and pornstars become disgusting freaks.
remove the mask and models are nothing more than department store manequins.
so if you think that youre better than others just because of your looks, skills, or friendbase, think about who youd be without it. nobody is above anybody else and nobody is lower. all humans are equal.
you may think i spen my entire fucking life bashing others. know that i throw ten stones at myself before i throw one stone at another person. life is about accepting the things both right AND wrong with yourself before going after others. you must accept the things you do wrong that are your fault before you go after others looking for blame.

im a weaver of dreams, i believe that the future can change in the blink of an eye. you can make plans to get married and have kids; but then the night before you have the wedding your s/o gets run over by a truck and dies. you could make plans to be the worlds next number one dancer, and then you break your legs falling down the stairs.

life sends suprises our way to see if we can get past them and live with them. people are born, people die. the sun rises, the moon falls. eventually everything that goes up must come back down. however, the same goes for the opposite; what goes down must eventually come back up. no matter how far down you fall you can always go deeper, but eventually you have to come
back up. or you crash through the bottom and youre on the other side going up again.

i believe that if an obstacle in life cannot be passed through or around, you must simply climb over. and once you reach the top you can look down at everything there is; to see all that youve conquered. just remember that everything that you pass up is a foothold that your life stands on, and forgetting the things in your past only removes those footholds forcing you to fall back down.

i believe that change is always possible, and that nothing is indestructable. the fact that something can be built means that it can be destroyed and rebuilt. we are all the same in life, human beings all trying to win first place in the same race. everyone is equal in my eyes and no matter what anyone can be brought to their knees in despair. its the people that dont take advantage of what they have that never fall.
my life is devoted to god and learning all i can. i prefer to listen to everyone else talk than say one word myself. its by listening that i learn theres more to life than just the black and white. theres grey, red, blue, green, and all the colors inbetween. remember pride is the source of arrogance, arrogance leads to envy, envy creates frustration, frustration leads to anger, anger creates wrath, and wrath ends in war, violence, and hasty greed.
there are many things im good at; listening to others, lending a kind shoulder for people to fall on, playing sports, writing scripts, music, books, and stories. cooking, keeping my house clean, playing with kids, writing, making up entertaining stories, and being perfect under pressure are my best traits. when it comes to relationships, sadly i havent had one that didnt end in sad
confusion.

though ive never been the reason or the one to break up, ive had my share of bad women. nothing brings a guys heart to its knees like being told that the only reason a girl spent time with him was because her boss made her. i am probably the most devoted guy anyone will ever meet. i actually spend more time obsessing about all my friends relationships than trying to find one
myself.

i could never stand to let another person suffer while i can do something about it. when i see people cry, i cry. im devoted, i listen to every word you say as if it was your last, ill hold you when your sad and if you cry i might too. i wont cheat, and even if another girl walks by i wont stop looking at you.

ill look you directly in the face even if youre just walking up to me for the first time. ill look you straight in the eyes, no peeking at your chest, butt, legs, or wondering what you look like with nothing on; unlike most guys. ill do the laundry, wash the dishes, help care for kids and pets, ill even draw you a warm bath if you ask.

im here to make you as happy as i can, and i refuse to put anything but god before you. ill remember your birthday, anniverseries, family events and birthdays, holidays and traditions, and even may just buy you flowers and bake a batch of brownies for you for absolutely no reason.
though i will be your greatest admirer and do everything ive said so far, if you forget even one holiday prepare for a week or more of sleeping in another room alone.
im italian and i take my culture very seriously. i do not like to have people who are close to me forget my family holidays. im also nothing like other people, guy or girl. the things that i find attractive are things that most guys hate or nobody notices.

the things that i find unattractive are actually the things that the majority of guys would die for. im unpredictable and spontanious, so if you think youve found sonething that i might like whether an outfit, makeup, or just a simple outing, if you dont run it by me first you may
end up with a day full of insults. of course i would honestly love to get a bouqet of white roses or a nice box of chocolates myself.

 

as for bad traits i have enough shit to fill a book. HEY! whattaya know?! im forgetful, im a bit critical, i am literal, i put the needs of others before my own even to the risk of my own health, i cant build for shit with tools, i cant do yardwork without breaking the tools, i dont even know how to turn on a car let alone drive it, i have tons of allergies, and the list goes on and on. focus on the good and not the bad, but dont  act like the bad doesnt exist.

life is full of ups and downs, remember that what was once a mountain is now the ground. it only takes a single idiot to start an avalanche.