a beginning to end all intros
my name is samuel joseph pernicano; my guess is you have never met anyone like me. rainy days are my sunshine, and sunsets are the same as sunrises. in my life there have been many trials of pain and joy. i have been alive so may strange and painful years, yet its the time i have spent alseep that are the most interesting. have you ever made friends with a talking cow wearing bling and a backwards baseball cap? i have.
to me the world is one huge singular organism. the earth is like a living thing; the trees being the hair, the water the blood, the ground the skin, the core the heart, and tbe living thibgs being its immune system. if we respect the world and keep it healthy those who live within it remain happy. people who believe that race can be used to divide humans have no idea about life. there is no race as any race can breed with another.
as for chimpanzees being our closest living relatives, why cand we breed with them? and if we are related to apes then why are pigs the only living organisms that most closely reseble ourr anatomy? to me their is no race, level of wealth, there is nothing that makes any human different from the person next to them.
life is like a game of chess. each piech represents someone in our lives. the 8 pawns represent our friends that we made through out our lives. the two castle rookes and knights on opposite sides of the board represent our family. the two bishops represent our best friends. last but not least, the king and queen. the queen represents our signifacant other, the one who we cherish more than anything else. the king represents ourselves.
we start out our lives by making some basic friends (pawns). usually these are the friends we make in our early school years. most of these friends are lost over time, but some can become our closest friends over time (like gettting a pawn to the other side of the board). like pawns in a chess game some friendships have to be sacrificed and lost to gain a higher place in life, or to get even bettert friends.
eventually almost all the pawns will be gone and youll be left with only your best friends and family. however, eventually you will grow up and will lose your family, the people who always stood by your side (the castle rookes and knights). at this point keeping your best friends and significant other closest to you is of utmost importantce.
over time as you age even more you will slowly riskk losing those you love, but remember this: when it comes to chess, if all youre left with is your king, the next move is most likely checkmate.
to fear is normal, some fears are logical, some are not. the most terrifying thing in existence is the complexity of the human mind. put it this way, would you rather find out that theres a bloodlusting demon in your house? or would you rather find out that theres an ex psychopathic serial killer living down the street from you. the fact is that you are more likely (sadly to say) to be killed by your neighbor than you are the demon. plus you can just move out of your house.
that killer down the street probably knows you, your family, and everything about your daily life. if he was still insane, he could crack at any moment and go back to killing. the human mind is so unstable that just activating a repressed memory can set off an eruption from a volcanic wound that has already been capped. repressing memories and emotions is not only a bad idea, but is also dangerous. it wont happen now, but years later those memories or emotions could be uncapped by some startling event.
it doesnt happen seeing someone die once is bad luck. seeing two or more deaths is horrible luck. seeing someone die, then repressing the emotions and memories for years, and then seeing a death AGAIN, is the potential for a mental melltdown. it doesnt happen very often, but experiencing the same thing more than once after repressing it for years can create more mental havock than having the experience twice with the emotions uncapped. never conceal hatred, lust, sadness, or envy inside your heart. for if you do, you too will be putting yourself towards a path of self destruction.
we live life bound by the things we naturally find terrifying. if we all faced our fears then we could achieve a higher state of being. i used to fear spiders, thunderstorms, tornadoes, the severe weather alert noise the radio makes, tornado sirens, skeletons, ghosts, demons, flying, sailing, water, heat, dying, death, hell there wasnt much i wasnt afraid of. but now, i have beaten and conquered my fears, most of them literally.
every night i am tortured by apparations and visions plauging me with constant horrors. you havent even opened the seam to true horror and despair till you have watched helplessly as the world and everything in it burn to ashes. friends, family, nature, pets, your home, your country, your planet, your memories, your lifes work, and everything you have ever known; screaming in agony as it all burns to ashes in front of you. flesh melting off bones, people screaming as their infant children turn to ash, homes turning to rubble, and all the while you stand there watching helplessly as it all falls down.
THIS is my life; THIS is the outcome that i face every time i close my eyes. NOTHING BUT YOUR SOUL MATTERS UPON DEATH! and no person can avoid this fate, death is inevitable.
"i am but a lowly king, here to make sure my loyal subjects are happy and live fulfilled lives. to those who shun me or my ways, two walls to every door; my mind is made."
No comments:
Post a Comment