seasons fully labeled

so here it is, the link to my fully labeled seasons composition. this took time and effort so be sure to tell what you think. though nobody seems to care what i say.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5Y4-6U1Hi0&feature=youtu.be

the life and times of sp_on episode 19

episode 19: from the heart of stone


life can be confusing sometimes; one second everything is perfect, then everything burns down right in front of you. how could we know when the world is going to end? how important are the things we own and what we have done when we reach the end? i believe that we are held down by the things we own and the deeds weve done.
i wonder sometimes if living a normal life is ever even worth it. i may be a home owner and have a place to live and tons of expensive things, but whats a good life without someone to share it with? my monthly budget is 700 dollars, since i live on disability. life can be lived when your income is under the countries average; its about how you manage your money.
i shop for clothes at goodwill, only eat when im hungry, i dont drink or smoke, i rarely consume beef and pork, and im both allergic to milk and lactose intolerant. i live off so littel because i know how to be frugal. i taught myself how to do pretty much everything. i learned how to write, read, cook, clean, do laundry, wash dishes, bake, repair things, compose music, tie my shoes, and all my english and math skills; all on my own.
i didnt have the grace of having a stay-at-home mother, and my dad cooked just as much as my mother did. i was raised in a family where all duties were shared by both parents, and as such grew up being used to that life. because of how i grew up i understood that only by two people giving 100% to each other can the couple truly experience the love of a relationship. you cannot expexct others to service you if all you do is service yourself.

labeled year of the penguin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P1vckGmtU24&feature=youtu.be

i have finally taken the time and effort to list all the stages of my year of the penguin song. not that anybody really cares, but you can now click to hear the different parts. soon i will be loading another music video in the same method.

spirit log episode 9: the harbinger butterfly

http://usnews.nbcnews.com/_news/2012/12/17/15966374-were-broken-newtown-begins-burying-its-littlest-victims?lite
the harbinger butterfly:

i once stumbled upon a graveyard just like this. there wasnt a tombstone with a child that was over 15 years old. most of the children werent even over the age of 8. i followed a beautiful butterfly that kept flying around me. it would land and wait for me to get within 5 feet of it before it started flying again. it was like the little guy WANTED me to follow him. i eventually found a cemetary full of headstones. some headstones were broken and shattered whil others were intact. and grave after grave brought me more and more sorrow. it was like a graveyard of slaughtered children. i started to cry, realizing that the parents of these kids probably never knew they would die like this. it made mee relook how i view my life. for anyone who thinks they have a crappy life, they clearly have never been to a cemetary. i pray those children didnt suffer. as for the conn. victims, i KNOW that they didnt suffer. the survivors will never be able to get over what happened.

tis the season....to be funny

so a blind man is getting ready to celebrate the fourth of july with his wife and kids. he tells them hes going to go fishing and cook what he catches for dinner. the blind man is out all day, and as his wife is about to call him he opens the front door and walks in the house.
"hey honey! im back; man you should have been there! i caught two of the biggest fish i have ever seen!"
said the blind man.
to which his wife responded,
"thats great dear, but could you please explain who those two women with you are?"

i get paid in peanuts where i work. so to everyone out there, does anyone want my nuts in their mouth?

Q: what are the special olympics called in mexico?
A: border jumping

Q: where do the olympic runners keep all their personal belongings?
A: in the pole vault of course.

Q: so why arent their any bisexual biships?

A: because they can only move diagonally.

from the eyes of a roach episode 9

The Humanistic Theory: What Makes Us Who We Are?

By: Sam Pernicano

 

So what makes us, us? In order to answer this question we have to think about the different cultures across the world.

The world is full of culture; each country has its own individual culture and their own holidays.  Some countries celebrate similar holidays such as Italy and Spain, which celebrate Marti Gras and the day of the dead.  Just about every country in the world celebrates Christmas, but for some countries such as Saudi Arabia, you can be killed for just having a Christmas tree in your house.  In America if you call someone an idiot, you are calling them stupid, but if you use that word in Italy, Germany, and other countries, you are calling someone an asshole (the pronunciation and spelling varies).  Just for the record, idiot in German is (dumkof).

A little bit of culture for you; in America it is traditional to celebrate Christmas.  In Rome, Italy they have a holiday on January 6 called epiphany that celebrates the “twelfth day of Christmas” it celebrates a Santa Clause like figure that rides around on a broom and drops down chimneys to deliver gifts.  Don’t believe me? Look it up, I'm Italian, and I should know this stuff.

We just recently celebrated the Chinese New Year; I bet you American people didn’t even know that.  It was on Valentines Day.  It wont be on Valentines Day again for another 60 years or so.  Why am I telling you about all these holidays? It’s the holidays that each and every country looks forward to each year.  America has Veterans Day, Italy has liberation day.  They are basically the same thing, but given different names.  Why? Because of the cultural differences between the countries.

Back at the dawn of mankind, we only had one culture, one language, and one society.  We spoke the same language, wore the same clothes, followed the same rules, and lived the same way.  As the world evolved, so did we.  We began to move to new and better places, we began to create new languages, we began to create new rules, and we began to create our own individual societies.

This is how the world was created as it is today (scientifically).  There are cultures like India, where the cow is sacred and is worshiped like a deity.  There were cultures like Russia when they were afraid of the loss of communism in Europe after WWII, which brought around the cold war.  There are cultures like china that shun against having female children and used to kill female infants.  Then there’s the American culture.

American culture is by far the most unique of any country in the world.  We are no better than anyone else; it is only our vast amount of different cultures that make us unique.  As everyone knows, America began as only 13 states.  After defeating the British, America was granted the right to be a free nation.  As time went by, those 13 states grew and grew, eventually becoming the 50 states we have today (excluding Iraq and Afghanistan, does anybody else think our country is trying to create new states there? I mean seriously, why are we there? Anyways…).

We have so many cultures that make up our society.  That means that there are a lot of different people here with different values, beliefs, social rules, and religions that live in our country.  These are just some of the things that make us who we are, but what makes us, us? Not us as a nation, not us as a culture, but us as people, what makes us who we are?

To answer that let me bring out a psychologists favorite thing about human nature studies, nature verses nurture.  For those of you that don’t know what this means, nature is what you have obtained through genetics.  Things such as bodily figure, eyes, hair, skin color, and height are examples of nature.  Nurture is what you obtain through your surroundings.  Things like the friends you choose, the way your parents raise you, the people you date, and the values you are taught, are examples of nurture.  I myself am the exception to the nurture rule; the way I am today has very little to do with the way I was raised, but enough of that.

Lets talk about nature for a second, say you have a father with blue eyes, brown hair, who is of average build and is five feet eight inches tall.  Then say you have a mother who has blonde hair and blue eyes, has a slim slender athletic body and is five feet three inches tall.  What would you look like? 

You might think that you would have blue eyes and blonde hair, but blue eyes are a recessive trait when it comes to genes.  Because both your parents have blue eyes you would have a high chance of having blue eyes, having a mix of blonde and blonde and brown hair and will probably reach a height of five feet six inches and be of an average bodily build.  That is a VERY rough estimate of what you might look like.  When it comes to nature, you not only have to consider traits from your parents, but also your grandparents and great grandparents.  I actually ended up with blue eyes, and nobody in my family except my great grandfather had blue eyes.  (Of course they changed at age 15, but that doesn’t matter.)  As for nurture, that is the main part of this explanation of why we are who we are.

Our parents try to raise us as best as possible.  They teach us right from wrong, they tell us how to act appropriately in social situations, and they show us the love and compassion that lets us know that they care.  They basically raise us till we become teenagers and hit puberty, where most of us rebel against them and constantly get grounded.

It’s all about whether we use what our parents taught us when we are old enough to go out on our own.  Like dating, hanging out with friends, going to parties, going to concerts or sporting events, and going off to college, where our true abilities are tested.  If our parents raised us right, we will make the right decisions and keep ourselves out of trouble.

The times of adolescence from ages 13-18 are the hardest times of not only a parent’s life, but also the Childs.  Think back to when you first began to get freedom from your parents.  Think about how you were allowed to go out later and later as you got older, and how you could do just about anything you wanted without your parents ever finding out.. 

Friends, why do we make them? Why do we choose the people we do? Why do our friends sometimes betray us? From the lowly young ages of preschool, we begin making friends.  In preschool they are called “playmates”.  Even then we have a reason for the people we choose to be friends with. 

Here's some interesting information that most of you may already know: young girls tend to form small groups of friends and play imaginary games like, “house”.  Young girls prefer to be in groups rather then in pairs.  Young boys usually go off and explore around.  Young boys prefer to hang out in pairs or in groups of three.  Young boys are much more physical with their playtime than young girls.

Now lets make a BIG jump to age 13.  Once children reach adolescence at the age of 13, they begin choosing their friends more carefully.  This is the point that most boys and girls are leaving middle school and are entering high school.  This is where a big change happens.

In high school there are multiple races, cultures, social groupings, and ages.  This is where a child is truly tested on how their parent(s) raised them.  If they make the right decisions, they will choose the right friends and will stay out of trouble.  If they make the wrong decisions, they will pick the wrong friends and may end up getting in trouble.

In high school you have multiple races: white, African American, Latino, Indian, Asian, etch.  You have multiple social groupings: cheerleaders, jocks, nerds, band geeks, Goths, popular kids, unpopular kids, bullies, seniors (yes it’s a social grouping, its just not well known), freshmen (people don’t always pick on the freshmen), etc.  Then you have a multitude of ages.  There are freshmen that are still 13 and some seniors that may be 20 or older.  These things can make it very hard to fit in.  However, if you can find a group of people or just one person that you’re comfortable with, you can fit in. 

That brings us to the question, why do we choose the friends we do? Well think back to high school again, when you went in as a freshman what did you expect? (Other that the seniors to come over and shove your head in a toilet).  If you liked to play music, you might join the band, but when people may call you a band geek you probably would deny it.  If you like sports you might join a sporting team.  If you were a good player, your team would like you and would befriend you.  However, if you lost a game people might insult you or complain about you.  If you liked to dance you might join the dance team or the cheerleading squad.  What if you lost a competition and people got angry with you? If you were smart and you got really good grades you might make friends with the other smart people.  If somebody yanked your underwear over your head as a prank, what would you do? If you were really attractive and knew how to work guys and manipulate girls like they were putty in your hands and you became one of the most popular girls in the school, what would you do if some guy you dated called slut and told you to leave your friends? If you were one of the tough guys in the school and you hung out with the other tough guys, what would you do if someone told you to make some new friends? If you were always being picked on, if you were constantly being beaten up, if nobody cared about you, but you found comfort in a group of kids that were in the same situation as you, what would you do if your parents told you to make some new and happier friends? If your favorite color was black, if you loved to wear piercing and wear dark make up and you found a group of people who did the same as you, what would you do if somebody tried to make you leave them and dress differently?

Now think about all those scenarios in order: the band geek, the jock, the cheerleader, the nerd, the popular kid, the bully, the loser, and the Goth, they were all given scenarios that each person may likely face.  Have you ever been any of those kids? Would you leave the friends your with? No you wouldn’t.  Why? Because we as human beings find comfort in familiarity.  When we find someone or a group of people that make us feel comfortable or happy, we do not like being told to leave them, nor do we want to leave them.  We would rather go on being with the people that make us happy than change our ways and find a whole new group.  That is why we choose the friends we do, and why we stay with them through thick and thin.

Why do friends sometimes betray us? Say that you are a guy who is dating a beautiful blonde haired, blue-eyed girl.  Your best friend is very happy for you, but spring break comes up and your parents want you to come with them from college to visit your grandparents.  You let your girlfriend know that you are going to be gone for a while and when spring break comes around, you leave.

When you get back you call your girlfriend to see if she wants to go out on a romantic date to make up for missing her over spring break, but you cant reach her.  After a week of not hearing back from her you go to your best friends place to see if he knows what is going on.  When you get there you catch your best friend and girlfriend locking lips on the couch.

You find out from your friend that he secretly has been envying you and the girl you have been dating.  He had liked her just as much as you, but he says that you had gotten to her first.  You ask your girlfriend why she was kissing him and she says that it was “a moment of weakness” and that “it will never happen again”.

Later on your girlfriend informs you that she had an emotional breakdown while you were gone and that she couldn’t reach you.  So she called the second closest person to you, your best friend.  She talks about how he was so compassionate and how he was there in her time of need.

Long story short, friends can sometimes betray each other when there’s something that one wants that the other doesn’t have.  Here’s another example this is for you girls.

Your best friend really likes this guy, she is crazy about him.  However, she is afraid to ask him out.  You keep telling her to just go up to him and talk to him, but she doesn’t. 

Eventually you convince her to ask him out and he says yes.  After her first date with him she begins to tell you every detail of the date.  You are very happy that she is dating this guy she is crazy about so you don’t mind.

Suddenly you get a call on your cell phone from your boyfriend.  He says he needs to tell you something.  When you see your boyfriend he comes right out and tells you that he’s leaving you for someone else.  Heartbroken, you return home and sleep it off.

Over the period of the next three weeks, all your friend talks about is her “amazing” and “special” boyfriend.  Eventually you become very jealous and aggravated.  You begin to get tired of hearing of your friends stupid boyfriend and eventually you take her phone out of her purse while she is in the bathroom at the mall.

You take her phone and smash it to the ground out of anger and frustration.  When your friend comes out, you tell her that her phone fell out of her purse and that somebody stepped on it.  You know that your friends phone was her life and that it was the only way she had of contacting her boyfriend.  You feel somewhat better but you realize that you may have just ruined your friendship.

Another example of betrayal, caused by frustration and jealousy.

So what do all of these things have to do with who we are as a person? Well our genetics, the way our parents raise us, the friends we choose, the choices we make, the actions we take, our culture, our race, and the way we think are what make us unique.  They are what make us who we are.  They are what make us, us.  They are also the things that make every single one of us, human.

from the eyes of a roach episode 8

Human Thesis: Why Are We Here?

By: Sam Pernicano

 

So here we are again, answering another commonly asked question, “why am I here?”  What do I mean by this?  We this is a variation from the question that the religious people ask, “what did god put me on this earth for?” though I believe in god, I am forcing myself to strictly keep religion out of my writing as best as possible, because I am answering things from a scientific and psychological perspective, I cannot use religion in my writing.  So lets work on answering this question, “why am I here?”

This time I am going back, but not all the way back.  I am going back to your birth.  From your birth you have no mental capabilities of your own.  You cannot think, act, or eat on your own.  You are basically susceptible too whomever you come into contact with.  Once you begin gaining the capabilities of thought, this is where your “path of destiny” begins.  It continues all the way into college, and even after you get out of college and get a job.

Once you are capable of the concept of thought anything you interact with or come into contact with begin to create mental knowledge in your brain.  The things that make you happy will make you happy when you get older.  The things that make you sad will make you sad when you get older.  The things that scare you will scare you when you get older.

Eventually you will reach childhood and will be able to speak a complete basic vocabulary, walk on your own, think like a normal person, and will contain the fears, likes, and dislikes that you had as an infant.  Now childhood is where you really begin to understand your place in the world.  Let me make a quick note, in the agricultural revolution, children grew up and were forced to work the farms, there was no college.  During the industrial revolution, children worked the factories; there was no college then either.  During the great depression, most children lived in the streets or died of starvation. 

Those children in the agricultural revolution were put on the earth to supply their family with food and supplies. Most of the children in the industrial revolution were put on the earth to work the factories so that the manufacturing industries could continue.  The children that died in the great depression were put on this earth to show the world the harshness that the destruction of a society can do.  The children starving in the street were put on the planet to encourage the nation to work harder to get back together so that they could feed and take care of their citizens again.

Today children have access to multiple types of schools, education types, technologies, tools, and food.  We have truly gone a long way.  Now back to the main story, childhood.

In preschool is where some people begin learning who they are.  I became a builder in preschool; I would take the lego's that they had and build ridiculously complicated creations.  I’m not talking about random objects.  I once built a spaceship out of lego’s, in preschool.  Do you know what most of the other kids were doing? Drooling, running around, and falling on their faces.  I once beat a kid up for breaking one of my creations.  My creation skills and love of building with lego’s and k-nex lasted till the end of high school.

How about you? What did you do in preschool? Some kids begin their discovery in preschool.  Let's move on to kindergarten.  Do you remember kindergarten, learning to read, write, and socially interact with others?  What about that all popular, “what do you want to be when you grow up?” I had one girl who said she wanted to be a tree, I kid you not, she seriously said that.  When in came to me, I just said, “I don’t know”, because ii don’t believe in making future plans.  The world is constantly changing; human nature is constantly changing and evolving.  New technology is being developed.  I make my plans short term, because I know that they will change.  How many of you had made plans for a party, date, or event that had to be changed? How many of you ever had to change your plans about a girl or guy? How many of you changed your plans about college? Marriage? Like I said, the world around us and the people in it are constantly changing.  It’s very easy to get stuck on an idea and have that idea come crashing to the ground.  Lets move on.  Form kindergarten to your first year in middle school.

How many of you in middle school began to take an interest in specific things? How many of you joined sports teams? How many of you joined the band? How many of you joined certain clubs and after school activities?  I joined the band in my 7^th grade year and have been a drummer since.  I am currently writing music of my own and have a percussive piece that is being arranged to be played by the Louisville youth orchestra.  (So what if it’s a bunch of kids, what have you done with your life again?)

As you reach your final years in middle school, you prepare for your entrance to high school.  For those of you who were popular, you start back at the bottom rung of the ladder.  For those of you that were cool, you are losers again.  High school is where a person REALLY begins to find their purpose in life.  This is where the world prepares you for college and the major that you want to follow.

Let me ask you another question, how many of you kept the same interests when you went from middle to high school? How many of you stayed in the band? How many of you stayed on sports teams? How many of you changed your minds? For those of you that had a complete change in your personality in high school, you’re not much different than most other people your age at that time.  From the ages of 13-18, this is a period of time in which people seek out and, “find their selves”.  It is during this period that people will try different things to see what they like and don’t like.  This is the period of time that people find out what kind of people they are compatible with to date or make friends.  This is the period in which every human being reaches puberty.

While you were in high school, did you have any favorite classes? How many of you had trouble with math? Science? English? If you had trouble with any of these classes you weren’t alone.  These are by far the most common classes that I heard students complaining about throughout high school, and even today in college.  Math is probably the most popular, followed by science, then English.  I will tell you this; these three subjects come in very handy when holding a job in today’s economy.  They also hold the world together. 

The geometric shapes and angles have been in existence for many years in building structures, roads, and things as simple as drawing a picture on a piece of paper.  Algebraic equations are used everywhere, in velocity testing on vehicles, and something we all know very well but rarely think about, gravity.  Biology, the study of the life sciences, allows us to have the knowledge that we need to understand the basic knowledge of the living things on earth.  Chemistry teaches us things about how things interact with each other, why baking soda interacts with vinegar (mix an acid with a base, you get a salt).  Chemistry teaches us why it is important to recycle, because plastics never break down.  Why? Because they are made of super long, super strong, chains of polymers that do not break down.  Without chemistry we would have never built the atomic bomb, because we would have never known about the atom, let alone known that splitting it causes a microcosmic scale explosion.  Physics teaches us how science and math work together to create the world, as we know it.  Without Isaac Newton we wouldn’t even have physics.  Now lets move on to the end of high school, the college experience.

After high school, most students head off to college.  Some students know exactly what they want to major in and they have it burned into the back of their mind, some students have an idea on what they want to major in, some students have an interest or a hobby that drives them toward a specific major, and some students are still searching for who they are and why they were put on the earth to begin with.  If you are undecided when you come in to college, or even after your first year, don’t be bummed out.  As the statistics go, most college freshmen don’t know what they want to major in, some until their third year. 

I started as a mechanical engineering major at Purdue, transferred to WKU and changed my major to physics, then went to math education, then went to science education, now I am currently at science education and am thinking about switching to psychology.  Most college students are likely to change their major at least once in their time in college.  Guess what, even when you have a job you still may change your mind.  Some people even go back to school in their late 30’s or around 40 just because they have lost interest in their current career, for monetary reasons, or for some other reason.

When you find the major for you, stick with it and work you’re hardest to complete it.  I will say this sadly; it is a fact that there are quite a few freshmen that don’t even make it through their first year, for whatever the reason.  I feel really bad for people like that.  I bet you guys are tired of hearing this, but it is true, getting a college degree will ensure that you get paid much more than if you only have a high school diploma.  However, college is expensive, all that tuition costs a crap load of money.  In my opinion, they should really either lower tuition, or offer more scholarships to a wider myriad of categorizations.

After college comes the time to apply for a job.  If you got lucky, you may have already gotten your job.  Applying for a job is a very hard thing to do, depending on what you majored in.  There’s this weird theory that I heard a long time ago that was kind of interesting, someone said that you are more likely to be hired if you wear jeans to an interview. 

Anybody else ever hear that, or try it? I can think of several cases where that is a VERY bad idea.  Can you imagine the look on the bosses face if you showed up to apply for a lifeguard position at a beach in jeans? I mean seriously, they would kick you away faster than Donald trump can pull a hundred dollar bill out of his wallet.  Think about this one: you apply to be a diving instructor at a water park, and you show up in jeans.  They would think you are dumber than a politician with no American background knowledge.

Seriously though, when it comes to job interviews people lie on their resumes.  People put the craziest things on their resumes.  I would love it if somebody set up a website with the funniest and stupidest things that people wrote.  I’m not picking on people, it’s just that the big heads of businesses are tough on the people they want to hire, and they want only the very best.  It’s kind of like applying to college all over again, except that you can say that you are a descendent of Jesus when applying to be a pastor for a church (just kidding).

While telling the truth is the right thing to do, I have to agree with the rest of the world here, lying on a resume for a job is acceptable if the incentive is that you REALLY need or want the job.  Just remember one important fact, if you lie, say something that you can ACTUALLY get away with.  Say something that either cant be traced or researched, or put on a good suck up act so that they don’t question you.  If you get the job then you are one step closer to discovering why you’re here.

For those of you still in college asking, “why am I here?” that question can be answered simply by looking back at your past accomplishments.  Look at all the things you’ve done with your life so far, good or bad.  What have you accomplished? Who have you helped? Who have you hurt? Who have you loved? Who has loved you? Who have you lost?

Then think about your parents.  How did they raise you? Did they love you? Did they take care of you? Did you do anything for them? Did you do anything to hurt them in the time you have been alive?

Now its time for a really big brain blow, ask yourself this one VERY important question, what would have happened if I had never been born? Think about all the questions you just answered before this one.  Had you not been born, all the things you accomplished, all the people you helped, all the people you hurt, all the people you loved, all the people that loved you, everyone that you lost, it all would have never happened.  Imagine all those people that were upset that you were there for, imagine all the people you loved and dated, imagine all those people that fell in love with you.  What would have become of them?  What about your parents? Had you never been born, your parents would have had a special part of their life missing from them.

So next time you ask yourself, “Why am I here?” think back to all the things you have done, and be happy that you are here and that you are who you are.  Think about what the future might hold for you and keep your head high.  Just remember that the world and everything in it is constantly changing, and never lose faith in what you believe.