#alllifematters i was called a racist in front of 100 people?!?

well i knew that with the half transformed pumpkin in the white house, that this would happen eventually.
i started what i thought was a conversation about working conditons for employee grunts. the man talks about how the stores have young people hauling carts in the freezing cold for no pay. i say "that is because walmart has no unions..."
followed by me being slammed about the catholic church raping kids and next thing i knew the person was calling me every racist term imaginable. as well as making threats and shouting about slavery, which is one of the many horrid scars on our planets history, the person began shouting everything imaginable about opression.
now i am not "white", in fact i have literal genetic evidence of my entire family tree that proves just this [technically i am southern european and my family originates from the druze].  personally i do not see color, i only see an un-unified planet of human life just rippling with potential. i feel that the way people are treated is wrong, even after thousands of years people with "non-white" skin still lack the basic rights, careers, treatments, and equality that everyone flat out deserves. even people of the lgbtqp community and non-patriarchal family lifestyles lack the basic rights that a "straight white male" recieves. and it SICKENS me.
every person has a right to their opinion and really i had no qualms with this person or what they were saying, i mean pretty much everything he said was a comlaint against "the white man" and the opression brought by the rich elite. honestly i agree that the way african americans are treated is and was wrong. i do not like using the term "african american" as it lumps all people of dark skin together as if they all originate from the united states. when this is further from the truth. i understand it is technically a correct term, but when you have individuals whom come from europe, asia, south america, canada, AND africa, calling them "african american" is depriving them of their "roots" and where they truly came from.
every person deserves equal treatment and ignorance and hatred only breeds more ignorance and hatred. i renounce anything the pumkin in the white house says and honestly wish that there were more people like dr martin luther king and ghandi alive today.
but what i realized about this racist encounter is how to react when facing racism.

walk away.

just ignore them and walk away.

it is the only thing you can do. confronting them only makes things worse, and feed their anger.

if you want others to see you are the better person, you have to have the courage to walk away. as trying to defend yourself only results in yourself getting slammed with more racist slurs and insults.

walk away. they act out of ignorance and hate and in most cases there is no trying to reason with them.

just walk away and ignore them, and only if they follow you should you try to defend yourself.

reason will not work. logic will not work. threats and anger only make things worse.

just walk away. and be the better person [gender neutral because racism affects all genders and races].

most people who are racist or say racist things are ignorant and filled with hate from the days of old or from their family.

if they try to come after you, then you must stand up for yourself.

but always be the better person and instead of trying to argue with someone who does not care for words, show with actions. be an example to your fellow human beings and be the better person, so that you can create a better world.

really if nobody reacts to the things these people [all people who preach hate on twitter, facebook, general social media, the news] then they lose their power. words only have power if we let them, and if we ignore those whom they come from they lose their strength.

i do not claim to understand the struggles that muslims, chinese, africans, hispanics, hebrews etc. went through. the ordeals that these people suffered were long and arduous and the enslavement of their people for cheap labor worldwide and for constructing blood structures across the world is impossible to imagine. i do not either claim to understand the stigma that they face and continue to face nor do i believe that five personal experiences equal literal generations of suffering and indignity.

i will say that i have a deep understaning of hatred and ignorance, facing it for more than just my own life but also on the behalf of my fellow human beings. and i do understand racism and many of its causes, and there is not excuse for bigotry, ignorance, or hatred for any specific people. all life has the right to live free of opression and hate and to have the right to speak freely and unhindered by the boot of a greater man. this planet is delicate and all human life has equal value, and not color, sexual preference, religion, nor gender should EVER have any say otherwise.

there is no one race, ethnicity, gender, sex, identity, or person whom is any greater than his fellow man he stand next to. for under the eyes of the stars we are but equal parts of a single whole.

the real damage being done by pot and vaping - your brain will NEVER enjoy sex ever again.

everyone says vaping and weed isnt bad.

but clearly these people dont know how serotonin and endorphins work.

marijuana and vape fluid both affect your body by forcing your brain to unnaturally release endorphins and serotonin. this is what is really causing the relaxtion effect. and the more you do it the more damage you do to your brain. it causes the receptors in your brain which respond to pleasure and affect things like joy and happiness to malfunction, as they have been over worked. this results in a similar state to how people with bipolar disorder, addiction, personality didsorders, psychosis, and severe depression function in terms of brain activity.

this is why smoking and vaping cause irritibility and more stress than they actially relieve. it is actually a false relief, similar to how meth, crack, pcp, or heroin works on your brain.

pot and vape fluid does actually damage your brain. but worse it will affect your ability to feel things like joy, excitement, happiness, sexual pleasure, and it can even lead to severe depression or suicide. all of these things are affected by endorphin release and serotonin levels in your brain, and the receptors which cause brain spikes upon experiencing things which normally would excite you. and this is actually permanent. as well as has been linked to dangerous axctivity like risk taking, criminal behaviors, and even acts that could maim or kill yourself or others.

you can also asphyxiate when "hotboxing" as the smoke will in fact push breathable air out of the room. and marijuana being a plant will mean there are people allergic to it. i am one of them.

people who take antipsychotics, meds for depression and bipolar, or other mental disorders can suffer adverse affects from pot as it causes your ability to fire commands between your brain and body to slow and lowers reaction time. it can cause medications which normally balance serotonin levels or other areas of the brain to slow or not work at all. and thus you end up feeling as if you are off your meds.

you may not know, but you do in fact do long term damage to your brain, and eventually your body as a result by smoking these things on a regular basis. imagine never being able to enjoy sex, food, movies, or even that adrenaline rush from scary movies anymore.

and all of these things are capable of being transferred to your children. as they are related to stress and excitement levels. studies from 9/11 have proven this. you want your kids born with anxiety disorders or being like trump or john wayne gacy? keep smoking that pot.

addiction is no joking matter mattpatt on game/film theory can probably describe how addiction affects the brain best:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_BTGgCEFuQw

seriously, his description of how even just mobile games affect your addiction is perfect. and vaping and amoking marijunana are no different in how they work. and overuse causes damage.

twitter break down - discussing a fake tweet - a.k.a. Photoshop fail!

soo, what exactly is wrong with this?

so allow me to point out everything wrong with this:

1. the phone screen is locked [upper right corner] meaning there is no way they could view this comment. nor could they access the phones keyboard to type.

2. the phone is IN AIRPLANE MODE [upper left] meaning they couldn't even USE twitter let alone comment or read posts

3. the phones time is 12:22pm, the comments time is 09:34am [meaning they posted this 21 hours after the phones ACTUAL TIME]

4. YOU CAN CLEARLY SEE a black line at the bottom. these lines are only uses to seperate comments or posts on blogs online. and below this line is what looks like another name or date. meaning this was taken from a blog or comment page

5. this uses 280 characters. [yes i typed the whole thing out].

[this is the max number for twitter]-but while they can spell words like acknowledge and reassurance they misuse the apostrophe in "someone's". anyone who knew how to spell large words like those would know that "someone's" means "someone is"

6. this comment was posted on tuesday morning at 9am. who the heck is up that early on a tuesday? let alone has enough brain function to post anything this morally reasonable and acceptable on twitter.

7. this entire thing implies it was done via a screent shot on the phone. by the user. meaning this person had such an ego that they either screen shot their own tweet after setting on airplane mode so updated comments wouldn't move their screen while capping so they could show the world what THEY think. or this person was such a fraud and an ass that they thought that they should take someone ELSES tweet, screen shot it, then use it as their own [which is plagarism btw], and edit it to LOOK LIKE it was from their own phone.

8. they didnt bother using editing to crop out the top of the screen where they had left airplane mode on and the icon showing their screen was locked. and also showing that the phone couldnt find a mobile network.

what else is easy? not faking something like this and not commiting plagarism. why would you need take something like this [that was probably someone elses] and fake that it was done by you from twitter?

come on people. if you feel this sincere, at least make an effort to tell people in your own words. or credit the original creator of the message. i never use content without first notifying the creator that i plan to do so. and often times i ask them permission first. it's just a courtesy.

or edit your stolen material so it at least looks like it was yours. dont be those guys in china making fake psvitas and claiming they are handheld game systems.

my ps4 became self aware?!?

soo my ps4 decided to turn on out of its own accord while i was on the computer next to it. it fully booted up and began registering button commands and lighting up as if someone was using it. i dont even know where my controller is, but i unplugged the hell out of that thing IMMEDIATELY. 
is this something that the systems can do without any kind of physical contact to the consoles or remote input?
i know it is possible to hack into things like computers and game systems via the network they run on. but the privacy settings, customization, disabled apps and controls, and the fact that i dont believe i have EVER set up my ps4 on the network really blows that theory out. 
i honestly cannot figure out what was going on. i was about to do the thing all lonely adults do on their computers at 3am, what? WATCH PORN?!? YOU ARE SICK MISTER. i am a millenial! millenials dont "watch" porn, we "experience" it. 
skipping the fact that i cannot use vr tech or anything involving covering my eyes. and the fact that i was UPDATING MY PROGRAMS [perverts], and had yet to do much anything. the ps4 just kind of, turned on. i didnt touch it, nothing contacted the power button, it didnt move, and the controller is so far away it might as well be in siberia. there was LITERALLY no way it could have done what it did. 
which was suddenly start self booting up, then the hard disk began being used as it began to spin, then the light that signifies that the console is checking media [the green, yellow, and red lights] came on, then it began functioning as it would had someone shoved a disc in, and as i walked over i noticed that it was making a whirring noise and was fully booting up. 
so i unplugged that demon ass posessed son of a bitch and took three steps back. why 3? cause thats what the bible say- WHY DO YOU THINK? that mother !@#$er was lighting up like a christmas tree and i aint used that thing in six months. i was bout to make a damn salt ring and start quoting the bible. be like "and the women shall go out into the fields with nothing covering their lower halves. and they shall beat their bear breasts and roar." [i SHITE YOU NOT that is REAL SCRIPTUTRE right there.]
no, but seriously, i only had three steps till i was ass up on my bed. if i took any more steps id be a ghost, cause no human alive can pass through solid matter. [cept for trump. only solid matter he believes in are walls.]
but i cant figure what happened with this thing. 

whistlin' the window - another "lets not meet" story

WHISTLIN' THE WINDOW

about a week ago at like 3am i could hear someone standing and moving outside my balcony. they didnt leave and were shuffling around and standing there. i started to wonder if it was just some drunk who got locked out.

then they started to whistle. they knew i was in my room because every time i made a noise or cleared my throat i could hear them tapping the balcony or groaning. and then they just starting whistling.

but not like a cheery tune whistle, cat call whistle, the loud whistle that gets peoples attention from across rooms, the "atteeeentiooon!" whistle, or even a song whistle. it was this like, monochromatic [imagine musical notes as colors], emotionless, chaotic tune whistle. there was no structure to the tune or any pattern. it was as a child pounding on the xylophone for the first time with no idea what notes made what tune.

it reminded me of all those movies and tv shows where the psychopaths and killers whistle a creepy baseless tune right before they strike their victims.

so i got real quiet. trying to make them believe i was asleep or something. and then they began to pace down the stairs and around my balcony. all while still whistling that unstatured tune. eventually the whistling stopped as they walked off.

and then they laughed. this creepy eeerie disturbing psycho of a laugh that one only does when they are completely bonkers. they were right outside my balcony down below as they chuckled in madness and walked off.

later on in the early morning someone rang my doorbell and the buildings doorbells about eight times. then the next day, again, at 5am they rang MY doorbell.

i still dont know who the hell this guy was. or what he wanted. what i can say is that i hope we never meet and that he doesnt come back. i hear that whistle again i am CALLING THE POLICE and sleeping with a gun in my hand.

at least jack is a deterrent.

dont waste money on youtube red, and dont waste precious time on annoying ads! [hacks for youtube!]

ok so i figure i should post about this, since clearly i am not the only person annoyed at the inability to both avoid ads on youtube AND freely download the videos i like.
actually. that was a lie. i DONT waste time on idiotic ads and i NEVER pay youtube dick diddly to download content.
frankly charging people to download content created by the public for the public on a service maintained under the basis of public access and free creation is PLAIN WRONG. it is no different than if you walked into a courthouse, an office, a library, or records room and the place was decked out with poster ads, and signup sheets. and some are, which is a violation.
when people create content on youtube they are loading something they made for the purpose of having others view it and be entertained, educated, or warned. youtube red takes advantage of youtubes creators as it is effectively selling tickets to a show, and then every three minutes the concert is interrupted as five finger death punch is shoved offstage so someone you dont know or give two sh*ts about can talk to you about a mobile app none of you have heard of, a car none of you want, and a fast food place that everyone hates [yeah THAT fast food place].
these reasons are not bad enough, that now if you want to take the content for viewing offline or on the go you must pay youtube red.
this might as well be the people who just shoved taylor swift off the stage now holding everyone at the concert at gunpoint who owns a phone, regardless of whether they plan on using the camera to record.
this is why i use IDM or internet download manager and adblock.
idm's webpage can be found here:
http://internetdownloadmanager.com/
it looks basic because that is what it is. it is the best video download tool that exists, and while you will need to buy after the free trial expires a full liscence key for one computer has a minimal lifetime cost. just go here:
https://secure.internetdownloadmanager.com/buy_idm.html
it costs $25.00 for a lifetime key that never expires, and even if you swap computers you can keep uing the same key. as the key you buy will deactivate on any old compters it was used once you use it on your new current computer.
idm is safe and easy to install, use, and run and can dowload from nearly anywhere on the web. idm even can download files, documents, and music and entire webpages. it has a download icon pop up in the screen that gives you file size, type, quality, and variations. by clicking over the download icon it tells you your options and you can choose whatever is available. and yes you can use it to download !@$& and !#$@! in case you were wondering.
more importantly idm can have downloads canceled, stopped, and resumed at any time and downloads files in segments so you dont lose any quality or amount. it also allows you to organize downlowds to specific folders so that you have some things going one place and others going another.
idm is also compatible with every type of browser so no worries regardless of what you use.

adblock is better known and can be downloaded from the chrome store.
make sure you get the adblock listed in THIS image:

[see the TOP one for the CORRECT adblock, as this is the one you want from the extension store.]

adblock is great. doesnt cost a damn thing and blocks all the annoying ads, clickbait, video advertisements, side scrolling bar ads, and clips that interrupt your precious online tv time. adblock is simple, easy to use, and you can even PERSONALLY select any ads that may come through its filters and block them yourself.
adbloack can even sometimes allow you to bypass popups that occur when trying to view links. you know the ones. the pop ups that are like "hey bitch, you wanna see this page and [read/watch/listen/etc.] you gotta click through THIS bs". well adblock can be used to block things like this, and combined with IDM [internet download manager] you can sometimes download the content to view later.
adblock is especially great when trying to use youtube. as they allow "fake links" that are just ads disguised into the list of videos on the side/lower bars [depending on zoom/device settings]. youtube also allows [or rather forces] moneytization [the BAD kind] wherin they place ads in content to make money off yours and everyone elses hard work. now im all for a free and open market without opression or descrimination, but when the market starts taking the goods you sell and giving them away they for their own purposes they cross a line.

what you may not understand about moneytization in youtube videos is that this is the youtube company, a busniess that literally is founded on letting everyone else do all the work, coming in and making money off of other peoples hard work. this probably does not matter to you.
   but if you spent six months building a car and then some stranger came up and said that you have to pay them becuase you built the car in a garage owned by a bank they manage how would you feel?
  or heres something more at home: you buy an iphone, you buy a case, screen protector, and protection plan. then you are face timeing when apple says that because you bught the phone in their store that you pay them for your face time and allow them to take your face time videos and play them to fat disgusting out of shape people because "they think" that seeing a thin attractive woman will help people work out.
  crazy? NO, because THIS is how moneytization works. youtube says that despite all the hard work you put into making your content, including sponsors, recording, editing, modifying, and posting; THEY have the right to make money off it.
do you LOVE lazy people? welchers? how about those people on the streets begging who actually arent even homeless who are fauxbos with houses and rich families? what about those REAL homeless people who beg you as you leave the grocery store? do you like paying taxes? how about that one ex [friend or otherwise] who did nothing but mooch from you till you had near nothing left and they called you out for kicking them to the curb?
if you answered "yes" to any of these questions then you obviously LOVE using youtube and its subsidiaries as they are. if you answered "no" then why do you allow youtube to make money off all your hard work when they, quite literally, sit around doing nothing but threatening you if you refuse? i fight every claim against me that is even the slightest bit immoral with about five pages of legal text and constituional law as well as a personal essay about intellectual property theft and taking advantage of those less fortunate and powerful than youtube.

it is also, why i use adblock and IDM, as i will not allow a company founded by lazyness and taking advantage of others hard work [45% of your money for them just adding a few ads? no.] hold me hostage and extort me for either my hard earned limited funds or my time.
  you can fight back against claims if you can speak well for yourself in text. but the real fight is against the advertisers and youtube itself. dont pay for youtube red if it is just to download content, that is just a waste of your hard earned cash.
  and if youtube moneytizes your videos or files a claim against you and you feel it was wrong, dont just take it like a helpless ant. fight back! try disputing the claim, worst that could happen is they reply or take the video down and you have to reupload it. most times they refuse to fight back if you try to defend your own content. they have too many people to deal with, and sometimes they just drop the claim.
"a single boot can crush an ant. a single hive can destroy the boot."

i had a seizure in public at walmart. and they did nothing. [walmarts treatment of the disabled and racial profiling]

well it finally happened. after a previous partial seizure in front of a walmart manager i had a full blown seizure. so i sent an e-mail to the morgan and morgan law firm.
this was the e-mail:
"i had a full blown seizure in walmart and they did nothing.
i was in line dealing with the panic attack from being overdrawn due to fraud charges. an overdraft which i could not pay. and during this the shoppers began berating me. after asking them to please stop, as i was on the brink of a sezure, they became more agressive. they directly began to verbally assault me, and even after showing them i was beginning to convulse, they just became more agressive. the employee, seeing this whole thing, did nothing. within less than a second my eye twitched, things went black, and i fell down and began convulsing. had there not been a counter in front of me i would have been on the floor with probably a broken arm or neck, as i fell head first.
meanwhile while i lay there on the counter half concious and convulsing, the store patrons just began throwing their goods past me and the employee scanned them and threw them into the bags. everyone just ignored me like i was not there, and the employee did not even ask me if i was ok or call over the mananer.  all i could muster out was a light muffled and panicked "i cant move!" as every attempt to remove my bags resulted with nothing more than me falling back down onto the counter.
they just stood there, ignoring me, while the employee watching, doing NOTHING.
i- i dont think i have ever been more traumatized in my entire life or felt such a loss of all control. it was like the entire world had forgotten that i existed, and as the pain in my chest and arm [which i must add already had a torn labrum from a previous injury] persisted and only got worse. i was terrified and felt like i was going to just fall completely over and those poeople would trample right over me.
i am still shaking as i type this and considering that this was my second seizure in the same store due to emplyee neglect, it onlky added to my suffering.
i apologize for the poor grammar. as i said, i am still shaking, and typing this is hard. i have experience with past trauma and neglect before, and i am honestly tired of being the ignored victim.
i do not expect anything from this from you.
and as for the place, time, date, location, isle, and even the people, it has been BURNED into my memory. i will never forget this."

and since walmart has no way of reporting this to anyone, making me feel even more helpless. i posted the following on their public chat on the corporate office headquaters main page:

"i had a full blown public seizure in the bashford manor walmart. 

i was shopping when i began to be berated by the shoppers behind me in line. 

i told them to please not bother me as i was on the brink of a seizure.

they became even more aggressive, now directly berating me about how much time i was taking. 

i showed them i was beginning to convulse and LITERALLY BEGGED them to please stop.

instead they started tearing into me and daring me, saying they didnt care.

and just like that in less than a second, i felt a pain in my arm and everything went black. i fell over on top of the counter and began to convulse. meanwhile they ignored me, and began throwing their items past me on the counter.  the employee literally two feet away, of course, did nothing. she stood there, watching me, and throwing the other shoppers things in my bags. they just continued on as if i wasnt there. 

meanwhile i lay on the counter in front of the whole store, half concious and convulsing, as the pain in my arm and chest just became greater. i tried to move, to get up, to do- well ANYTHING, but i just kept falling back onto the counter. all i could do is squeak out a weak, pained, and struggled "i cant leave!" looking at the employee behind the counter with a look on my face, BEGGING for help. 

but she did nothing. the shoppers did nothing. things went quiet, or the seizure was affecting my hearing. i honestly couldnt tell at this point. it was as if i was just part of the register, like i was not even a living being the employees and customers considered worth helping. 

i am not a litigious man, but this time your store went too far in their act of neglect. any act commited by a stores employee is a representation of the company and busniess they work for. and considering this was the SECOND TIME i suffered a seizure due to employee negelct, i am inclined to believe the store genuinely does not care when someone suffers serious medical disaster that could kill them. include this with the fact that store exit greeters profile and only check people of certain ethnicity and color upon leaving, and i actually think walmart may be racist and bigoted against certain groups.

but like i said i am not normally a litigious man, key word being "NORMALLY", and i am tired of being the neglected victim. i have already contacted the morgan and morgan law firm about this. if walmart is lucky nothing will happen, if not i have gone through this with kroger before; only kroger listened. 

i have no choice but to shop at this walmart location, and while i do HAVE to i do not have to trust or respect the employees or customers. and after this, well i can honestly say, i do not think i will EVER trust another walmart patron or employee again. and first chance i get i WILL SHOP and spend the hundreds i spend at walmart at ANY other store nearby. even the dollar general.

so i thank you walmart, and its subsidiaries, for showing me the kind of people you hire and cater to. 

have a nice evening.

and for anyone who wants the location?

bashford manor lane 

louisville, ky 40218

21:20 01152019

tuesday evening

isle 6

employee: female, thin, african american"

this was traumatizing and i am doing this as i NEED some form of solace and closure. i feel powerless under the negligent boot of the corporate machine. it is as if there is nothing that can be done, so i am sharing my story so anyone else who suffered something similar may know they are not alone. 

"you can crush an ant, but the hive will consume you."